12th March 2011, 01:43 PM
There is no shame at all connected with depression, I quite agree; but somehow it does make one feel ashamed.
That's a hard feeling to get over as is the feeling of worthlessness. So many things can bring you down and I think that in this climate ones colleagues - even friends - feel just as threatened as you but it can translate into a negative competitiveness. I think I am suffering from some of that at the moment. The axe is hovering and everyone else seems to be "pushing" others in it's way. Not a nice feeling and frankly not a nice way to behave.
Nor is being smug. I have a touch of the Bridget Jones "smug marrieds"...smug supervisors, smug POs and smug managers ought to be a little more sympathetic and a little more careful in my view. If there's no one digging the stuff up, there's no one to supervise/manage, no reports to write and no publications to get your name on the front of.
So, suddenly, what is the purpose of a commercial archaeological company I wonder? Can it survive on Outreach and delayed report publications? Only for a short time...then the draughtiness left by the lack of diggers may lead to a wind of necessary change.
That's a hard feeling to get over as is the feeling of worthlessness. So many things can bring you down and I think that in this climate ones colleagues - even friends - feel just as threatened as you but it can translate into a negative competitiveness. I think I am suffering from some of that at the moment. The axe is hovering and everyone else seems to be "pushing" others in it's way. Not a nice feeling and frankly not a nice way to behave.
Nor is being smug. I have a touch of the Bridget Jones "smug marrieds"...smug supervisors, smug POs and smug managers ought to be a little more sympathetic and a little more careful in my view. If there's no one digging the stuff up, there's no one to supervise/manage, no reports to write and no publications to get your name on the front of.
So, suddenly, what is the purpose of a commercial archaeological company I wonder? Can it survive on Outreach and delayed report publications? Only for a short time...then the draughtiness left by the lack of diggers may lead to a wind of necessary change.
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, Merlot in one hand, Cigar in the other; body thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and screaming "WOO HOO, what a ride!